Category Archives: Homeless

This is a vent – reader discretion advised – proceed at own risk

Primal Scream!! Smash*Demolish*Destroy;
Primal Scream!!! Sunder*Disassemble*Disjunction; Primal Stream!!! Stomp*Trample*Crush;
Primal Scream
– Exterminate! Exterminate! Exterminate! –
Primal Scream!!

Aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

That feels much better. I use to keep things bottled up but that renowned teacher, Experience, has taught me that letting frustration build up is to invite Mr Depression for a most unwanted, unpleasant visit. So I make it a point to “let go” of what is frustrating me – ASAP.

This matter has proved to be a recurring frustration. Rather than repeating over and over what has not worked hoping for a different outcome, insane behaviour, I thought I would try a different, perhaps very different approach.

The roots of the matter draw their nourishment from stereotyping, a beloved tradition in human society. The depth and breadth of this behaviour and the myriad of problems that it causes is reflected in the choices made in planning the Supported Independent Living spaces. The landlord had once had a negative experience (PORN) in providing access to the internet to the homeless.

So it was, having the desire not to repeat this experience, they judged that none of those needing help to transition from homelessness to being domiciled would have a legitimate (non porn/dating sites) need to access the internet. This judgment was likely influenced by the fact that, at least at this location, the organization is somewhat computer challenged.

Thus it was that I quickly found the joy of once again having access to my old computer, once I was no longer living in the car but a room with … electricity, giving rise to frustration over the lack of internet access. Yes I could now write articles even when community free access computer sites were closed and without time limits but then I had to hunt for somewhere to upload to the internet what had been written. Not to mention all the documents and material I have to find someplace to download. For so much than I am involved in and pursuing internet access is vital.

Even an organization with wide contact with homelessness fell prey to stereotypes of the homeless, thus denying access to the internet to those of us (yes more than one, not just me) to whom the internet is a vital tool in getting connected to others in the community and back into the community. Bringing focus on just how daunting the task of trying to get people to look beyond what they “know” and the stereotypes this “knowledge” gives rise to. Because if we truly want to begin to address the crises of poverty, homelessness and affordable housing we must get people to look beyond stereotypes and see the reality of the situation.

I have jokingly (a kind of laughing past the grave) said that before I end up homeless again I want to make sure I have a station wagon for more sleeping room and a laptop computer for computer and internet (via hot spots) access. Having a laptop in a city with many “hot spots” would be almost as good as having an actual internet connection.

Compounding this desire for a new, high-powered, loaded to the gills with software laptop is my old computer. Now it is not that I have been remiss in upgrading this computer I have, even recently scraping together the cash to take advantage of a great sale to install a 100G hard drive. The main problem lies with my software most of which is 4+ years old – a lifetime for software. Further complicating this whle mess is the effect SP2 has had on the XP operating system, resulting in many of my programs either running agonisingly slow, not fully working and for several most important pieces of software not functioning at all.

One fortunate aspect of my recovering mental health is friends so I was able to scavenge a carcass together with enough bits and pieces to get a second computer up and running the 2000 operating system and thus able to run the XP unusable software. Not an elegant solution but a workable solution, especially with my extremely limited resources. And one that would be much easier, much less frustrating to live with if it were not for my lack of internet access.

So it is that dreams of a high-powered, software loaded internet accessible laptop have me drooling over sales flyers containing laptops and suffering the pangs of frustration, up to being very, very frustrated – particularly when having to wait several days to download documents so that I can open them at all. Not to mention the extra frustration of being limited to effectively no internet research time or abilities.

I have tried to deal with this frustration in more, shall we say traditional methods. To no avail. Since I am just over a really black and nasty visit from Mr Depression, I want to take no chance of this increasing frustration inviting Mr Depression back soon for another visit.

When traditional, accepted methods failed to help me let go – it was time to get creative, very creative. I have some small, soft clay figurines that you carry around and then put under your pillow at night. You let one soak up the negative energy and then put it outside and the wind, rain and sun slowly dissolve it and your troubles. There is also the practice of writing down what troubles you, setting the piece(s) of paper on fire and letting the problems drift away the winds with the smoke.

It felt/feels right that since my frustration is so connected to cyberspace (or a lack of connection to cyberspace) a more creative, modern approach was necessary. Thus it is that I come imbue these words with my frustration by uploading them to the web, posting them to the web and into cyberspace, setting them sail, upon the electron winds of cyberspace.

Politics at is morally bankrupt worst

On Tuesday January 9, 2007 I sent a letter to CanWest and various newspapers expressing my thoughts on the complete lack of judgement evidenced by Global’s Vancouver television station and their telethon for Stanley Park. With all the important issues that need funding and public awareness it was to aggravating to remain silent on the insult offered to all those in true need of assistance.

Imagine then how infuriating it was on Thursday to watch the politically desperate behaviour of the NDP, a party that claims to champion those society views as disposable. There, in a disgusting display of opportunism, were various members of the NDP caucus and party as they sought to score meaningless political points against Gordon Campbell for the province not donating millions more to “restoring” Stanley Park. As if nature, another area it would appear the NDP pay only lip service to, were not capable of healing Stanley Park without any “help”.

To add further injury to the numerous insults good judgment, ethical behaviour and a sense of priorities have taken over Stanley Park this week, Gordon Campbell showed a total lack of backbone and jumped on this decadent and senseless Stanley Park bandwagon. Apparently Mr. Campbell’s “NO” is only firm when denying funding to the poor, homeless and those in real need. Appeasement is seemingly the policy of Mr. Campbell and his Liberal’s when the decision has such a potential to negatively affect Liberal party coffers or political fortunes.

Watching this vile display of moral bankruptcy and politics leaves one yearning, make that praying, for the addition to the BC political landscape of a new party with ideas, ideals, honour, the ability to say “NO” and a sense of priorities based on principal and reality. Otherwise I and many others are left disenfranchised, lacking as we do any party or candidates worthy of our support or deserving of being entrusted with the governance of British Columbia.

OK now I am incensed and disgusted


I got an e-mail from the publisher of Something Cool News asking my reaction to a planned fundraiser “Renewal of the Jewel” and comments by John McComb of CKNW’s “The World Today” on Stanley Park and homelessness. He called Stanley Park a “Jewel” and stated fixing it should be a major priority. When it was suggested by a listener that radio air time would better be spent on an issue such as homelessness Mr McComb’s reply was along the lines of “We did a whole week on homelessness on this station. How many shows on homelessness do you want?”

The publisher wanted to know what I felt about Mr McCombs attitude and about fundraising for the repair of Stanley Park since while I may be a passionate advocate on homeless and poverty issues, I am acknowledged as being objective, forthcoming and rational on the subject.

As I told him, I think that indeed it is important to aid Stanley Park recover from storm damage. The Park is described as natural and undisturbed old growth, leading to its description as a “Jewel”. I use the word aid deliberately. The damage from the storm is something that happens in the natural life of a forest and in due course the forest will heal itself as part of the cycle of life. But … such a self healing would be on the timeline of the trees of Stanley Park and on a plan that results from Nature, not man.

These calls for “repair” or to “restore” are about people’s wants and human hubris, because “we want OUR Park and we want it now”. It is not about Stanley Park. If it was about Stanley Park it would be about cleaning up the portions of the park – roads, causeway, paths – that give access to people to enjoy and commune with the park and letting the Park itself “decide” how, when and in what form it will heal and grow. If this is truly about maintaining the “spirit” or essence of Stanley Park then we must be willing to let Nature and the Park choose the HOW and WHEN.

I feel it extremely important that it is Stanley Park itself that dictates its growth and recovery; otherwise it will be no more than a very large garden or any other ordinary city park.

Still even doing a minimum to restore access and allow the Park to choose its own destiny will have costs and so I fully support the idea of a “Renewal of the Jewel” fundraiser. Especially since the funds raised may be needed for lawyers to protect the Park from overzealous human “friends”. Either way, a fund raiser of this sort seems a perfectly good idea for, hopefully, a sound purpose. Besides, as I rather snidely commented to the News a fundraiser such as this, while it would buy a good supply of Band-Aids for homeless issues, is not what is needed to fund programs to actually accomplish reductions in homelessness, addiction, poverty and a host of other related challenges.
Before I had the opportunity to formulate my thoughts on Mr. McComb I had the misfortune to see the Global 11PM news and their telethon. Seeing their self-congratulation on a telethon to raise money for Stanley Park left a foul taste in my mouth and granted me understanding of what is meant by “seeing red”. It is actions such as this that leave me despairing for the human race.

Several months ago in the Vancouver Sun Peter McMartin had a story about a church that was opening its sanctuary to those homeless who needed a safe place to sleep during the day. Included in this group were those who worked full time at night jobs such as cleaning office towers, but who cannot afford to rent housing in the very city they work in nor can they afford to live elsewhere and commute to work.

The church had accumulated a huge deficit and would continue to add to the deficit because they choose to live their faith and open their doors and hearts to those who needed help. Front page of the Vancouver Sun, a realistic need of hundreds of thousands of dollars, perhaps a million or two for a operating trust fund. Where was Global News that day?

Variety, the Children’s Charity; BC Children’s Hospital; a church in dire need because the pastor and congregation choose to live their faith; are worthy of a telethon. But trees? I just hope that there is someone at CanWest with common sense and clout enough to give everyone responsible for this display of thoughtlessness, bad judgement and a total lack of priorities the swift kick in the ass they deserve.

Although, it would appear that this lack of judgement and common sense is rife on the airways. “A major priority” Mr McComb? If you can look around Vancouver, at our province, our country and our world and consider, what is after all at its very root a bunch of trees, a major priority … well all I can say and/or suggest is that for you a major priority should be removing your head from where you obviously have it lodged.

The answer to the question “how many shows” is – as many as it takes. I am not advocating 24 hour homeless radio or television. But we have no hope of intelligently addressing the issues surrounding poverty and homelessness unless we can, over time, educate and get the public thinking about these complex and messy issues.

People can spend uncounted hours watching Jerry Springer, pseudo-news programs, televised poker or reruns. More hours listening to Mr McComb, Howard Stern and trash radio. They will spend hours, days even weeks arguing and thinking about the Canucks. But thought provoking programs on poverty, addiction or homelessness? Don’t wana see it, don’t wana hear it, most assuredly don’t wana to think… … … about it. Millions can be raised for trees, trendy causes, animals or politicians but people in need?

Maybe therein lies the lesson that Stanley Park has to offer us. On its own timeline, in its own fashion and in accordance with its nature the Park can, will and should be allowed to heal itself. But if we, as a society lack the wisdom inherent in this old forest, then a hundred years from now as the forest is invigorated by the changes that nature has wrought, camped out among its new growth will be the poor, the homeless and the other unwanted. A wise old Park watching over the same old human society, a society that itself remains still desperately in need of healing.