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Reality begins to set in.

I was watching the 11 PM CTV news on Saturday September 18 and got a certain satisfaction as well as a chuckle from their report on the anti-HST campaign where the CTV Vancouver news department, for the first time by any mainstream media, began to ask people about the $1.6 Billion that the federal government paid to the BC government to enact the HST and that would return to federal government coffers if the HST were to be repealed.

The people they interviewed on camera both felt that it was better to keep the HST than to return the $1.6 Billion to the federal government. The report also cited emails from people who had signed the anti-HST petition asking how they could get their name off the petition now that they were aware of the $1.6 Billion consequence of repealing the HST.

Of course the organizers of the anti-HST, are trying to obscure the reality of the $1.6 Billion dollar cost by speaking of negotiating with the federal government even though there is nothing to negotiate as the purpose of the payments to BC were specifically for the purpose of inducing the BC government to implement the HST.

The first payment was tied to the introduction of the HST legislation, the second was tied to the day the HST came into effect and the final $475 million is payable on the first anniversary of the HST becoming law.

Clearly the federal government made the $1.6 Billion payments to the BC government for the enactment of the HST and is entitled to a refund if BC violates the agreement by repealing the HST; the same contract law that applies to individuals and corporations applies to governments as well.

There is no need for the federal government to negotiate if the HST is repealed in BC. If BC reneges on its HST agreement with the federal government they can reclaim, would be entitled to reclaim, any monies due them by the simple expedient of reducing transfer payments to BC by the amount they are owed.

Since the federal government makes transfer payments for healthcare and education exceeding the $1.6 Billion level they don’t need to ask the BC government for repayment, they can simply deduct any monies due the federal government for repeal of the HST from the transfer payments.

That is the reality of the consequences of repealing the HST and no matter how Mr. Vander Zalm, Carole James, the NDP and the anti-HST campaign wiggle or obfuscate this will remain the reality.

Which one hopes will leave Carole James and the NDP to explain how it is that they propose to increase spending on education and healthcare at the same time they are advocating, championing, cutting the $ 1.6 Billion in federal HST funds out of the BC budget.

And Mr. Vander Zalm et al to explain why it was they failed to address this major consequence of repealing the HST as part of their anti-HST campaign.

Hypocrisy, duplicity and the HST – Top 5 countdown.

Caveat: It is now early in the AM of Tuesday September 7 and this countdown is as of this specific point in time. I have added this caveat because, as noted, the principals are seemingly striving on a daily basis to be # 1. As a result the order of the countdown has changed several times. In order to facilitate finishing and publishing the countdown the order will be frozen as it is at this point in time.

Watching the evening news Thursday September 3, 2010 it seemed to me the question is not so much about whether the public is faced with deceit on the matter of the HST, but which of the five principals involved is guilty of the biggest deceit.

So here is my take on where the 5 principals involved in the HST brouhaha fall on a list from the least deceitful to the most deceitful.

Number 5 is the Liberal government.

When I started writing this the Liberals had been #4 mainly as a result of the level of distrust they have earned during their time as the government. As I was writing this piece the behavior of one of those in the top 5 shot them out of 5th place and up the list, leaving the Liberals to fall into the number 5 slot.

The fact that Liberal government only earned the #5 position reflects not the innocence of the Liberals but how considerable the offensives against TRUTH committed by the other parties involved in the HST brouhaha were, are and continue to be.

Let me preface this by saying that I am not a fan of Colin Hansen. His decisions and policies as Health Minister and now as Finance Minister have led to the rationing of mental health services even as the demands on these services grow. This rationing has lead to deaths, including those of innocent bystanders, and has inflicted undue pain and suffering on those denied mental health services as a result of this rationing.

That being said, calls for Colin Hansen’s resignation by Mr. Vander Zalm and the NDP, based on the sin of omitting to talk about the possibility of the HST, is spurious and laughable in light of the behaviours of Mr. Vander Zalm and the NDP in omitting to disclose or discuss the $1.6 billion dollars of federal money cost of repealing the HST.

If the bureaucrats in Victoria had not been talking to the bureaucrats in Ottawa about PST, GST and a HST they would not have been doing their jobs; especially in light of the Ottawa/Ontario HST discussions.

The question of when Mr. Hansen (or even Mr. Campbell) was aware of these communications or the content of the communications is not important either.

The only question of import is when did the Liberal government made the decision to accept Ottawa’s $1.6 Billion dollar bribe and implement the HST?

I rather suspect that the answer to that will ever be known past the level of reasonable doubt.

In judging the level of offense of the Liberals there are two additional questions that need to be taken into consideration. 1. Whether the HST is, in the long run, a decision in the best interest of the province of BC. 2. Given that Ontario opted to adopt the HST and that the federal government had offered the same $1.6 billion bribe to BC it had given to Ontario, was there any reasonable choice for the government of BC other than excepting the $1.6 billion and adopting the HST?

Given the budgeting needs of BC would it not have been irresponsible to turn down the $1.6 billion; especially as most of those funds came out of the pockets of other Canadians and not the pockets of BC taxpayers.

Number 4 are the citizens of BC.

Who were #2 on the list until the actions of other principals over recent days moved them past the citizens of BC who have benefited vis-à-vis their ranking not for their innocence but for their consistency in not adding to the behaviours that have placed them on this list

In regard to those behaviours: the level of lying to themselves, at least one hopes it is lying to themselves, demonstrated by the citizens of BC on the HST and the finances of the province of BC is alarming; especially at a time when tough economic and policy choices need to be made.

This outrage at politicians lying is farcical in light of the fact that voters have been rewarding politicians who lie to them by electing those who told them what they most wanted to hear, no matter how unrealistic the promises where, and punishing anyone who told a truth voters or citizens did not want to hear.

It is unreasonable to reward politicians, news media and others for lying then get upset when they lie.

Citizens are guilty of major offenses against logic; wanting more and more services but not to pay for them. For example: parents demand government keep underutilized schools open, but have you ever heard those parents state they were willing to pay the extra costs of keeping those schools open? When the costs of keeping underutilized schools open to appease parents results in other budget cuts parents do not call for closing underutilized schools so those budget items do not need to be cut; they demand the government spend more money – without raising taxes – as if the government has Rumpelstiltskin spinning straw into gold in the basement of the legislature in Victoria.

An astounding number of people who signed the anti-HST petition are not aware that a major factor in the BC government’s decision to implement the HST was the $1.6 billion bribe from Ottawa and that the $1.6 billion would come out of next year’s budget and back to Ottawa if the HST were repealed. Being against the HST and signing the anti-HST petition without being in possession of the facts is not only foolhardy but irresponsible.

It is even more irresponsible to be aware of the $1.6 billion (as are Mr. Vander Zalm and the NDP) and ignoring or burying one’s head in sand so as to avoid thinking about the $1.6 billion cost and the effect of having to repay that money will have on services, other taxes and the budget.

Choosing to believe that the media will report in a fair and balanced matter all pertinent facts on an issue so as to avoid the effort required to learn the facts themselves is further self deceit. News broadcasting is about ratings, not about informing the public; hence the ‘if it bleeds it leads’ credo of news broadcasting.

Perhaps the biggest, most self-deceptive lie people tell themselves is that they are not consuming their children’s future. Every lie citizens tell themselves to avoid dealing with issues or avoid paying for programs and services they want comes at the expense of the future, the much reduced and impoverished future our children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren and so on will inherit.

Number 3 is Mr. Vander Zalm.

Mr. Vander Zalm started the article in 5th place but advanced to number 3 through his actions on Friday September 3, 2010.

Mr Vander Zalm had earned the number 5 spot as he is guilty of lying by omission for his failure to address the consequences of revoking the HST. Unless Mr. Vander Zalm is so out of touch with the economic reality of the province and the lives of most British Columbians he cannot fail to be aware that, while the loss of the extra $300 million the HST would have raised for provincial coffers this year and next would inflict painful cuts on next year’s budget, it is the reduction of next year’s budget by the $1.6 billion of lost federal funds that were (or would have been) paid into provincial coffers for implementing the HST that will inflict severe reductions in services on the citizens of BC.

Paying for the loss of the $1.6 billion will fall mainly on health care and education as a result of their being the only budget areas that have $1.6 billion to cut. You cannot cut the $1.6 billion out of the next largest budget item, safety, because even if you cut the entire budget in this area – closing the courts, the jails, prisons, sheriffs, et al – there would remain the need to cut a further $0.5 billion out of the remain provincial budget.

The irony here is that Mr. Vander Zalm is guilty of the same offense he claims to be incensed about by the Liberal government – failing to disclose the inconvenient economic truths or facts that would reduce the popularity of Mr. Vander Zalm and his anti-HST campaign.

At least one hopes the high cost, $1.6 billion, of repealing the HST would cause citizens to reconsider the matter rationally.

Mr. Vander Zalm earned his move up the countdown as a result of his announcement that he would be targeting Mr. Campbell and Mr. Hansen for recall campaigns.

Recall legislation is intended to allow constituents of a riding to recall an MLA whose behavior they found unacceptable. Ignoring the question of possible negative consequences to our democracy and our electoral system this abuse of the recall legislation will inflict on government and governance, the fact remains that the legislation was intended for use by the constituents of a riding and not for the use of those outside the riding.

Mr. Vander Zalm’s malevolent abuse of the recall legislation to attack Mr. Campbell and Mr. Hansen demonstrates, beyond any doubt, that for Mr. Vander Zalm the anti-HST is not about principles or the good of the citizens of BC but about politics and settling old political scores.

This behavior raises the question of whether Mr. Vander Zalm is seeking political redemption. With the Liberals mortally wounded by the HST and the NDP mired in financial irresponsible nonsense could Mr. Vander Zalm be hoping to a Social Credit resurgence?

After all Mr. Vander Zalm is safe as long as the HST is not repealed and the cost and consequences of the loss of the $1.6 billion in federal funds is not revealed or does not come to pass. Since the Liberals, whatever their faults may be, are (one certainly hopes) to financially responsible to repeal the HST and forfeit the $1.6 billion in federal funds – Mr. Vander Zalm would appear safe of the repeal coming to pass front.

Given the willful blindness and obtuseness by BC citizens that earned citizens a higher spot on the countdown than the Liberals themselves, Mr. Vander Zalm would seem to have reason to hope citizens will not be demanding he explain the cuts to services he would make to compensate for the loss of the $1.6 billion in federal funds.

Number 2 are the NDP.

The NDP earned a higher ranking than the Liberals because, in addition to the offense of lying by omission for their failure to address the consequences of revoking the HST, the NDP have compounded the level of offense against TRUTH by their attacks on the Liberal government on funding for Healthcare and Education.

The NDP continue to call on the Liberals to increase funding for Healthcare and Education at the same time they are demanding the liberals reduce the government’s revenue by $1.9 billion ($1.6 federal money and $0.3 billion extra dollars for healthcare raised by the HST).

Besides moving them past the Liberal government on the top five countdown, this type of financial nonsense is why the BC NDP (as well as the federal NDP) need to build a strong, financial sound and responsible right wing in the party. The Saskatchewan NDP have demonstrated that an NDP government can be both progressive and financially sound and if the NDP elsewhere are to be viable alternatives to govern they need to build a financially sound and responsible wing of the party.

Post Script: Prior to NOW the NDP had been ranked #4, having been supplanted on the countdown by Mr. Vander Zalm’s efforts to achieve a higher ranking. However two occurrences have shot Carole James and her NDP to number two.

First was watching the video of Carole James speaking about how the people of BC wanted more Healthcare and Education. The second, and I admit quite annoying item was receiving an email soliciting donations to the NDP because “The BC Liberals are playing a dangerous game with democracy.”

Urging me to “Please do your part and make a donation today.”

I have a better idea; how about I call the NDP on the dangerous games they are playing with BC’s finances and financial future.

Ms. James and the NDP are, through their anti-HST policy, going to cut $1.6 Billion in federal funds out of the BC budget while they are calling for spending hundreds of millions of dollars (Billions of dollars?) on Education and Healthcare.

Leaving any financially responsible citizen wondering if Ms James and the NDP are trying to turn BC’s debt into junk bonds – or are they simply that far out of touch with fiscal reality ?

Number 1 is the media.

The media is the one group that remained unchanged in their placement on the top 5 countdown. Not surprising in light of their ongoing daily efforts to not ask any questions or convey to the public any information that would threaten to end this ratings winner of a ‘story’ for the media.

It is not just that the media is also guilty of lying by omission on the matter of the $1.6 billion that earns the media top spot as perpetrating the most consequential of HST deceits.

No, the most consequential media deceit is that they continue to foster the untruth that they are about reporting important stories, events and facts when in fact the media is about the bottom line. The priority of the bottom line has a profound effect on what makes it into the media.

Mr. Vander Zalm and outraged citizens railing against the government and HST makes far better theatre and thus ratings than Mr. Vander Zalm or citizens sputtering and trying to answer what services they would cut, or other taxes they would raise, in order to compensate for the loss of the $1.6 billion of federal funds.

Raising that question to Mr. Vander Zalm, the NDP or other leaders of the anti-HST campaign at the beginning may have scuttled the campaign with the result that the media would have lost this juicy bit of easy to cover theatre. When it is about the bottom line, it is about fermenting juicy theatre, not asking questions or raising issues that could potentially bring the drama to an end.

It is why media makes outrageous statements such as “the HST has resulted in the increased cost of most things”.

The GST is on no more items than it was before the HST came in. The PST was on more that 50% + 1(item or service) of the goods and services in the province of BC. Since the HST is the amalgamation of the GST and PST the HST was already collected (just as two separate taxes) on 50% + 1(item or service) the HST was already applied on ‘most (50% + 1) items.

If ‘most items’ have in fact gone up after the HST was brought in then the public is being bilked by those taking advantage of the introduction of the HST to sneak in price increases and blame them on the HST.

But you don’t see the media doing stories on the City of Abbotsford taking advantage to slip price increases at recreation facilities in under cover of the HST. Nor will you see mathematical checks of new prices to see how much is due to HST and how much to surreptitious price increases. Remember the GST portion was already applied to all goods and services so price increases should only occur on items to which the PST did not previously apply but now does – and those increase should be only 7%.

But that wouldn’t make for the theatre that stating “the HST has resulted in the increased cost of most things”. Which is why you get “the HST has resulted in the increased cost of most things” no matter how obviously untrue that statement is.

Theatre, ratings and the bottom line is what media is about – not the popular misconception of informing the public. Which is how and why the media earned the number 1 ranking in hypocrisy and duplicity.

Is? Or is not?

You’re not paranoid if the Universe really is out to get you.

I stood there contemplating the recycled brown envelope sitting atop the pile of mail before my door as if it were a King Cobra poised to strike; filled with foreboding that the contents of the envelop would reveal the next act in the Universe’s attempt to afflict my Life, my very Self, with chaos, panic and catastrophe.

The first law of Buddhism states: Life is difficult. The laws of probability mean these difficulties are not going to fall at evenly spaced and predictable points in time; that there will be periods where these difficulties clump so that the road of life is full of potholes and where, if the bird of paradise were to fly into your life – it would be to deposit his digestive waste product on your head.

This reality applies to the Outside world and, for those of us living with mental illness, the Inside world as well.

Where life gets INTERESTING, in an inauspicious way, is where – when – the roads of life in both the Outside and the Inside worlds are full of potholes.

When this happens dealing with the obstacles in the Outside world is made far more difficult by the anxiety, panic, depression, obsessive/compulsive behaviours and negative thoughts raging in one’s mind.

And while the potholes in the Inside world are driven by events/thoughts taking place in your mind, the events taking place in the Outside world can trigger or reinforce (or both) events/thoughts occurring in one’s Inside world, one’s Mind. When the events in the Outside world reinforce the events/thoughts, the potholes, of the Inside world the situation can become truly devastating.

Your car fails Aircare – anxiety, panic, depression explode and you find yourself in bed with the covers pulled over ones head. A state that makes it very difficult to get the car repaired. With the car crisis hanging over one’s head, dealing with the anxiety, panic and depression becomes a challenge of climbing Mt. Everest proportions.

From time to time, the depression I live with comes to intrude into my life and my head. With self-knowledge, knowledge, skills and tools acquired in seeking recovery and wellness I have, when depression has decided to pay a visit, been able to move back into recovery, balance, serenity and wellness in a timely manner.

This spring, the potholes in the Outside world reinforced the potholes in my Inside world, resulting in not just Mr. Depression staying free but setting freeing his playmates anxiety, depression, obsessive/compulsive and negative thoughts.

Chaos, panic and order were (are) warring in my mind. Fortunately, or perhaps unfortunately I have put in the hard work needed to gain the self-knowledge, knowledge, skills and tools to enter battle with Mr. Depression and his playmates.

Fortunate in that I did not crash and burn; Unfortunate in that the harsh reality of the mental health system is that crashing and burning is the fast track to getting access to the help needed to prevail in one’s struggle to deal with the chaos wrecked upon one’s Inside world by mental illness.

If the BC Liberal government wishes to insist that wait times for medical care for medical procedures such as knee surgery are a matter of efficient scheduling and efficient use of resources I can live with that. I have a friend who faced a wait to get his knee operation and while it caused pain and inconvenience he survived the delay and is currently struggling with the healing process.

However in the matter of delays in accessing the mental health services needed, it is not a matter of efficient scheduling and use of resources but of rationing. The difference lying in the fact that the consequences of not being able to access mental health NOW are so often dire, even disastrous or deadly.

Unless it is a matter of self harm or harm to others one faces months of waiting to get access to the rationed mental health services currently available.

As painful and uncomfortable as life may be it is, at least right now, far too interesting and filled with battles to fight (rationing of mental health care for one) to give serious contemplation to suicide. And as satisfying as it may be to contemplate the justice to be found in the harming of politicians, it is against my personal code of behavior.

Leaving me to struggle back to wellness; seeking to balance the challenges in the worlds Inside and Outside; to surf the tsunami in order to avoid being overwhelmed, crashing and burning.

Because of the feelings of powerlessness and frustration engendered in dealing with the bureaucracy that is the Ministry of Housing and Social Development (AKA Social Assistance) any interaction with this Ministry brings on heavy duty anxiety and puts me on the constant edge of panic.

So when I got the letter from the Ministry containing the forms for my doctor and myself to fill out to renew my PPMB status …. Well on top of everything else that was going on it was too much, to overwhelming, and I found myself literally not capable of dealing with this matter on top of everything else I was already dealing with.

Rather than giving up, crawling into bed and pulling the covers over my head and letting my life crash and burn in hope of getting help to deal with the chaos (Inside and Outside) as I SO wanted to do, I dragged myself down to the local Ministry office and explained the circumstances – struggling with my mental health and to avoid a meltdown – and that I was not capable of getting the forms in as scheduled.

I was told there was an extension and that I now needed to get the forms completed and submitted in August. So I focused on holding my head together while I dealt with the potholes in my Outside world one by one.

Careful budgeting, fiscal discipline, creativity, having been a good tenant (I got to remain as a tenant when the home I rent in was sold and my landlords changed) etc. allowed me to fill the potholes one by one.

I was making good progress when my car failed Aircare at the end of June. My quality of life is dependent on having the car as it allows me to be involved in the community and issues, to work part time (buses do not run in Abbotsford at 1:30 AM) and be able to afford my rent, to access the food resources in the community.

I came frightening close to the mental, emotional and life meltdown I was, and continue to struggle to avoid.

One of the best things I have learned in my journey of recovery is how to be a friend. As a result of this I have not just friends but good friends.

It was funding from a very good friend that allowed for car repairs and the passing of Aircare which permitted me to turn my attention to dealing with the final Outside pothole – the forms for the Ministry. Once I had dealt with this last curve ball the Universe had thrown at me, I could turn my attention to dealing with the potholes Inside – or so I thought.

The Universe however had another curve ball to throw.

When you do something that should put positive karma in your karma account – giving a friend a ride to a weekly program they wanted to take but needed a ride to – and a negative outcome occurs – your exhaust pipe is knocked off as a result of the steep incline of the driveway – it is understandable if one begins to feel that the Universe is really out to get you.

Control, deep breathing, talking myself out of the urge to floor it and let the chips, and the exhaust system, land where they may enabled me to hold it together long enough to call another friend, then carefully drive over to Grumpy’s Garage and get the muffler repaired after 9 PM at night.

When no new potholes developed in the week that followed I was able to get the PPMB forms filled out and submitted.

Achieving this required not giving in to the panic that tried to erupt each time I phoned to make a doctor’s appointment. Doctor’s offices are busy places and every time I phoned I ended up on hold listening to Muzak and hanging up as panic tried to erupt. Friends are beautiful things to have as another friend took (dragged) me up to the doctor’s office to make an appointment and back to keep the appointment.

Closed eyes and a focus on breathing let me remain in the waiting room and the examination room and avoid giving in to the flight urge; permitting me to have the needed form filled out by the doctor which allowed me to deliver the forms before the end of August deadline.

As I began to considered how I would deal with the potholes of the Inside world, the simmering cauldron of anxiety, panic and negative thought patterns kept the question ‘what is going to be the next Outside pothole to appear’ intruding into my head.

It was these negative though patterns about a new Outside pothole that had me standing there contemplating that envelope containing the notice of deposit from the Ministry as though it was a King Cobra. With the Ministry’s ability to devastate one’s life I ‘knew’ that what was in that envelope would reveal not simply a pothole, but an Empire State Building sized sinkhole.

It was only the fact that if I left it there I would see it and be reminded of the perceived looming disaster that had me picking up the mail and carrying it inside. Where another mental struggle ensued as the urge to hide the envelope from sight warred with the knowledge that if it was a sinkhole it needed to be dealt with ASAP.

Teetering back and forth, pro and con until I could slice the envelope open and look at the notice of deposit and …

… found the notice of deposit in the amount of $96 instead of the normal $630 (approx.), leaving me short $504 for rent, raising the specter of being homeless once again. Resulting in me struggling not to close the blinds, crawl into bed, pull the covers over my head and stay there as Life collapsed around me.

Instead, a good set of wellness tools had me going out for an evening meal, then joining some friends for coffee and making my regular evening swim to avoid sitting there allowing anxiety and panic to take over.

There is a reason that May you live in interesting times is considered to be the first of three curses of increasing severity – May the government be aware of you and May you find what you are looking for being the other two.

Which suggests it may well be wise for me to keep the old proverb warning one to Be careful what you wish for you just might get it in mind.

Still there is appeal in the thought of the ministries that are, in theory at least, there to help not hinder being helpful and the hope for less interesting and more boredom in my life to afford some quiet time for finding my way back to wellness.

It is at times like this, when the urge to retreat into denial and bed with the covers over my head refusing to come out that I come closest to understanding the lure of alcohol or drugs (legal or illegal) as a way to cope with or escape the mental stress and pain living can inflict on one’s mind and soul.

Postscript:

Wednesday night was mostly sleepless, with what sleep did occur not being restful – occurring as it did when I drifted off from time to time as I sat focused on writing about what was occurring. Writing being the diversionary tactic I chose to focus my mind on something to keep anxiety and panic from exploding.

Having succeeded in keeping the anxiety and panic relatively controlled the struggle moved to not retreating to bed, denial and avoidance through procrastination. The internal debate was long enough that I nearly missed lunch, having chosen lunch as the first step in getting to the Ministry’s office to deal with the matter.

After lunch I took advantage of the opportunity to share the situation with a friend, allowing me to calm and center myself to the point where I could proceed to the Ministry’s Abbotsford office. Where, because the day before was cheque issue day, I joined the line outside the doors of the office.

Knowing that I would face a long time in line I had brought what I had written the night before with me to edit as my choice of diversionary tactic to focus my mind on something to once again keep anxiety and panic from exploding.

By the time I finished editing what I had written I was left with only a manageably short period of time alone in my head with my thoughts before getting to speak to a worker.

With my Serenity worry stone firmly grasped in my hand as an aid in not letting the panic and trembling get out of hand, I explained the situation to the worker who checked my file and told me that the PPMB paperwork was in process and I would have an adjusting cheque in my hands by Tuesday.

I really appreciated his calm politeness and the understanding he showed of how panicking the situation was to me. Laughing when I looked at him after his telling me not to worry, as two of the multiple barriers I deal with are anxiety and panic.

The reality I live with is that until I have the cheque and September’s rent paid I will have to deal with anxiety. Having been told I would have a cheque that would allow me to pay September’s rent by Tuesday will, or at least should, avoid anxiety turning into panic.

Perhaps more importantly, the knowledge that having succeeded in getting the PPMB renewal forms in will result in being able to pay September’s rent will permit me to avoid self sabotaging or destructive behavior between now and the point in time that September’s rent is in the hands of my landlord.

It does seem to be probable that the Universe is not out to get me and that anxiety, panic and depression make me a little Paranoid when they are running loose in my brain without adequate adult supervision.

Still, just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean that there isn’t an invisible demon about to eat your face.

The reality I live with is that anxiety, panic and depression can always find something as a focus upon which to base negative thoughts of impending doom and catastrophizing upon.