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The way I perceive the Universe, our reality, together with an analytical and inquisitive mind have always made spirituality a very interesting journey and struggle for me. My mind is constantly mulling over reservations, questions and uncertainties. Which is one of the reasons I expect to never join any specific church or faith.

Churches and Faiths require a degree of certainty I will never, by my nature, attain. This does not prevent me from being highly spiritual, indeed this constant struggle with questions seems to have made me more deeply spiritual in my essence and actions and my interactions with my higher power, it just denies me any degree of certainty.

For the most part I am accepting of this path, although with my focus on spirituality I do tend to find the fact so many “Christians” are so in name only and not in action highly annoying – to say the least. But every once in a while I regret my inquiring nature.

I had to move out of where I was living at the end of September, a task I was not in any way looking forward to.

The week before while serving lunch to the homeless the Pastor of the Open Door Church stated he would be by with a pickup truck to help and that he had a place I could store my things until I found another place to call home. He arrived the following Sunday to tell me “We cannot move in my truck”. It was pouring rain and he felt that it would ruin many of my belongings to be moved in the pickup so he promptly phoned and borrowed an enclosed cube truck.

When he returned with the new truck he brought with him some parishioners to help out. My belongings vanished into the truck and into storage. Pastor Bill was even going to swing by the next morning to help me move my balky VW, but another friend help me solve that problem. I may lack the monetary resources for housing but I have embarrassing riches of friends.

While I may feel a twinge of regret that my nature, and perhaps my path, denies me the certainty needed to feel comfortable in even this church, my spirit rejoices at this evidence of a church that understands the meaning of being Christian and living ones faith. Besides, nothing in my nature denies me enjoying their company and friendship.